A detailed elaboration about the experience
of the enigmatic 'DMT entities' reported in many experiences
The
Tykes...
Well, I suppose it's an invitation do describe a DMT
trip, which is never to be passed up. Because I think,
I think what we're talking about here is a continuum,
I'm talking about a very narrow band of experience.
A continuum of experience that comes through tryptamine
hallucinogens: DMT, Psilocybin, and the DMT-Harmine
combination... and that's it... Mescaline doesn't, isn't
what I'm talking about. Ketamine certainly isn't what
I'm talking about. Datura certainly isn't what I'm talking
about. And some of these are plants, and some of them
are synthetic drugs, but it's a very narrow spectrum
of these highly visionary ones, and then the most visionary,
the quintessence is DMT. I mean, I think that DMT is
as intense as any drug should ever get; I don't ever
want to be more loaded than that. I don't think you
can be more loaded than that and come back. You know?
What happens on DMT for me, and this is based on, you
know, composite image of many experiences, and I've
confirmed it to some degree with other people, but I
was talking to somebody the other day, somebody who
had just done it, and I said, "what did you think?"
and they said: "It's the most idiosyncratic thing
there is." and I thought, what a wonderful description,
that's exactly what it is - it's pure idiosyncraticness.
It's so idiosyncratic that's all there's there - it's
like idiosyncracy without an object, is what DMT is.
When
you smoke this, the onset is very rapid. 30-45 seconds,
you know? There's this feeling which comes over your
body - half arousal, half anaesthesia. The air appears
to suddenly have been sucked out of the room because
all the colors brighten visibly, as though some intervening
medium has been removed. And then there's a sound, like
a piece of bread wrapper or cellophane being scrunched
up and thrown away. A friend of mine says this is radio-entelechy
leaving the anterior fontanelle at the top of your head.
[laughter] I'm not sure I want to line up with that...
but a membrane is being ripped; something is being torn.
And then there is a total (what Mircea Eliade called
in a wonderful phrase) "a complete rupture of the
mundane plane". [laughter] You know? That's like
a hit and run accident except the car came from hyperspace,
you know? A complete rupture of the mundane plane. And
you fall back into this hallucinogenic space, and what
you see is a slowly rotating red and orange kind of
thing, which, over the years we've nicknamed, uh, 'The
Chrysanthemum'. And it's.. this represents some kind
of disequilibrium state that has its roots in the synapses.
What's happening as you're watching this Chrysanthemum
is that millions and then hundreds of millions of DMT
molecules are rushing into these serotonin bond sites
in the synaptic cleft and disrupting the serotonin and
switching the electron spin resonance signature of these
neural junctions in this 'other' direction. And this
is taking, you know, 30 or 40 seconds, and there's this
rising hum, this ____nnnmmmmMMMMMMMM^^^^ that rising
tone; the flying saucer tone of Hollywood B movies...
you actually hear this thing.
And
then, if you've taken enough DMT (and it has to do entirely
with physical capacity: Did you take, did you cross
the threshold?) something happens [clap] which... for
which there are no words. A membrane is rent, and you
are propelled into this 'place'. And language cannot
describe it - accurately. Therefore I will inaccurately
describe it.
The
rest is now lies. [laughter] When you break into this
space, you have several impressions simultaneously that
are a kind of gestalt: First of all (and why, I don't
know) you have the impression that you are underground
- far underground - you can't say why, but there's just
this feeling of immense weight above you but you're
in a large space, a vaulted dome. People even call it
'The DMT dome' I have said, had people say to me, "Have
you been under the dome?" and I knew exactly what
they meant.
So
you burst into this space. It's lit, sofeted lighting,
some kind of indirect lighting you can't quite locate
it. But what is astonishing and immediately riveting
is that in this place there are entities - there are
these things, which I call 'self transforming machine
elves', I also call them self-dribbling basketballs.
[laughter] They are, but they are none of these things.
I mean you have to understand: these are metaphors in
the truest sense, meaning they're lies! Uh, it's a jeweled
self-transforming basketball, a machine elf. I name
them 'Tykes' because tyke is a word that means to me
a small child, and I was fascinated by the 54th fragment
of Heraclitis, where he says: "The Aeon is a child
at play with colored balls" ... and when you burst
into the DMT space this is the Aeon - it's a child,
and it's at play with colored balls, and I am in eternity,
apparently, in the presence of this thing.
There
are many of these things, but the main thing that's
happening is that they are engaged in a linguistic activity
of some sort, which we do not have words for, but it's
visible language. They are doing the visible language
trip. When you break into the space, they actually cheer!
The first thing you hear when you pass across is this
'hhhyeaaaaaayyy' - you know the Pink Floyd song? "The
Gnomes have Learned a New Way to Say Hoo-Ray"?
This has gotta be what these guys were talking about;
how else could it be? It doesn't make any sense otherwise.
[laughter]
You break into this space... the gnomes say hoo-ray!
And they come rushing forward and they, and, and the
thing then that happens is... and people say "is
there risk, to DMT? it sounds so intense. Is it dangerous?".
The
answer is: yes, it's tremendously dangerous; the danger
is the possibility of death by astonishment. [laughter]
And you must prepare yourself for this eventuality,
because you are so amazed. Amazement seems to be the
emotion that has torn loose and swamped everything else
- I mean astounded? When was the last time you were
genuinely 'ASTOUNDED'? I mean, I think you can go your
whole damned life without being 'ASTOUNDED'... and this
is astonishment, you know, raised to the N-th degree
to the point that your jaw hangs...
I
mean you're like this:
And
it raises issues: like you say, "Jesus, ah, huhh
... I must be dead!" And you, and the weird thing
about DMT is it does not effect what we ordinarily call
the mind. The part that you call "you" - nothing
happens to it. You're just like you were before, but
the World has been radically replaced - 100% - it's
all gone, and you're sitting there, and you're saying,
"Jesus, a minute ago I was in a room with some
people, and they were pushing some weird drug on me,
and, and now, what's happened? s s is this the Drug?
Did we do it? Is this it?" And meanwhile, these
things are saying: "Do not give way to amazement;
Control your wonder." in other words, they try
to bring you down. They say, "Don't just goof out
on this; pay attention. PAY ATTENTION... to what we're
doing." "OK, what're you doing?..."
[laughter]
Say this is what we're doing, and then they proceed
to sing objects into existence. Amazing objects. Objects
that are Faberge Eggs, things made of pearl, and metal,
and glass, and gel, and you, when you're shown one of
these things, a single one of them, you look at it an
you know, without a shadow of a doubt, in the moment
of looking at this thing, that if it were right here,
right now, this world would go mad. It's like something
from another dimension. It's like an artifact from a
flying saucer. It's like something falling out of the
mind of God - such objects DO not exist in this universe,
and yet, you're looking at it. And they're clamoring
for your attention. " 'k at this! 'ook at This!
Look at THIS!" and they pull these things... and
each one, you look into it and it begins to open into
this wonder that you must fight. You say "No, don't
look at it, look AWAY from it!" because it's so
wonderful that it's swamping my objectivity and destroying
my ability to function in this space.
Well,
then they say "do"...
And
the objects that they make have the peculiar ability
to themselves generate this linguistic 'stuff' which
condenses as other objects. So beings are making objects,
showing you objects, the objects are turning into beings
and making other objects, these beings and objects,
they jump into your chest - and then they jump back
out. They jump into your body and disappear into your
body, and then they jump back out, waving these things,
just throwing this stuff in all directions. They are
- the word that comes to mind is: they are Zany. It's
like a Bugs Bunny cartoon, uh, gone mad. And all of
this energy - they are elves. This is what elves are.
It's this wierd thing, where they love you - or they
like you a lot, but you can tell that their sense of
humor is Weird. And that you must be very careful of
the deals you cut with these things. and and in fact
I've spent so much time trying to understand what is
this. It has different kinds of feelings about it. One
is (and this really threw me for a loop when I figured
this out) after many many of these trips, and analyzing
this place I kept going to, I finally realized: "this
place is... somebody very weird... it's their idea of
a reassuring environment for a human being! It's like
a playpen. It's this warm. well lit, secure, womblike
environment, and when I break into it they these things,
the elves and the toys, are toys! These are things to
amuse me. The way you would hang, uh, cubes and blocks
above a crad... a playpen, you know? Because children
are supposed to coordinate shapes and bright colors.
That's what these things are: they are toys to try and
get me to coordinate my perception in this place. It's
a holding area of some sort - someone's created this
and is watching me.
OK
- that's one metaphor for what it is. Another metaphor
is... I took this stuff to Tibetans, to the Amazon.
I gave it to Tibetans, they said "this is the lesser
lights, the lesser lights of the Bardo. You cannot go
further into the Bardo and return. This takes you as
far as you can go." When I gave it to shamans in
the Amazon, they said "It's strong - but this is,
these are the ancestors. These are the spirits that
we work with. These are ancestor souls. We know this
place." Well then, the third and final metaphor,
because when you're in that place you have such complex
emotions - very complex emotions - something weird is
going on with time, because you perceive your body image
as infantile. You seem to have a very large head, and
a very body, and very short limbs. And, you know, I
dunno what that's about.
But
they're, uh, this...
Then
the last facet of it that I want to mention is: there
is this 'you must be on your toes' thing - don't let
these guys get behind you. They are tricky. And their
elfin humor may not be your idea of a good time.
[laughter]
And I said to myself, where have I had, before, this
feeling that I'm having now. It's a feeling of being
with people that I can't trust, but who want to help
me, and who seem to be trying to, uh, cut a deal. That
was the word that gave me the clue: "deal".
And then I remembered, "I know where I felt like
this - I felt like this in the Crawford Market in Bombay
when I had a kilo of Gold in my pocket and I was trying
to trade it for hashish, and I was surrounded by all
these Arab hash traders, and they were saying "we're
your friend, just wait, don't worry..." And say
"yes, I KNOW you're my friend and I'm NOT worrying,
but, you know, brbrbrrr... perform!" And so then
I said: "Aha the creatures in the DMT flash are
Traders..." They're Traders. And that's what this
weird feeling is - it's a business environment in there.
[laughter] We're having a business meeting. THey're
saying... and then the objects! Then I remembered- the
objects... they're trade goods! They're saying: "How
about thissss! How about This!".
What
do they want? What do I have that they want?... They're
meme traders, is what it is. And I think that what they
wanted, and got, and took - without bothering to even
say a word about it - was everything I knew about the
"I Ching". And they're like art collectors.
They say "well, the idea is primitive, and primitive
in its execution, but with a certain kind of internal
integrity that one really must respect..." So they're
primitive art collectors, and what they left me with,
then, was, uh, my own, you know, their model of time.
Which is the closest thing to one of these hyperdimensional
objects. The objects themselves cannot exist in this
world. But the blueprints of them can. And this afternoon,
if the computers are up and running, I will run through
this 'time idea' with you.
And
I think I will be able to convince you that it has a
weirdly crafted patina to it, that, the feeling is it
didn't spring from human minds, it, it is a creature
of another kind of mental universe. And I think, you
know, aside from the crisis on this planet and our own
personal difficulties this is the real challenge of
the psychedelic thing; is to meet the inhabitants and
trade with them. And set up a relationship. The notion
traders. They can trade hyperspacial notions from across
the cosmos. And this may be all the extraterrestrial
contact that we're, uh, going to be vouch-safed, you
know?
Transcribed
by Bob Cain rcain@netcom.com